Peace of my heart

One of the ways that I deal with strong emotions is through tears. Many perceive this as a weakness, but I do not. For many years, I dealt with surface emotions and buried within myself my most painful emotions. I refused to look at them, and just pushed them away. As I reflect on it now, I view it as having been a huge mistake. One day, everything came rising to the surface and I just broke, completely. Pain seemed to be drawn to me like a magnet and I felt as though it had wrapped it's cords around my heart, pulling relentlessly and mercilessly, without ceasing. I don't think that I am the only one that feels this way. That is why I am sharing. Most people hide their emotions. I do not. I see no need to. If you hide your emotions, do they disappear? Is it healthier to keep them back or to bring them out in the open and deal with them raw? Suppressing emotions can be toxic. Hidden things have power over you. Now I choose to fully experience the emotions and...

      God takes Ezekiel's wife. He warns him the day it happens and requires of Ezekiel not to mourn, weep, or let tears run down. Ezekiel 24:15-18 (ESV) The word of the Lord came to me: "Son of man, behold, I am about to take the delight of your eyes away from you at a stroke: yet you shall not mourn or weep, nor shall your tears run down. Sigh, but not aloud; make no mourning for the dead. Bind on your turban, and put your shoes on your feet; do not cover your lips, nor eat the bread of men." So I spoke to the people in the morning, and at evening my wife died. And on the next morning I did as I was commanded. This was all done as an example for Israel. Ezekiel 24:19-24 (ESV) And the people said to me, “Will you not tell us what these things mean for us, that you are acting thus?”   Then I said to them, “The word of the L ord came to me:   ‘Say to the house of Israel, Thus says the Lord G od : Behold, I will profane my sanctuary, the p...